Nursing: beginning to end
Dd was born on 11-30-02, in a very baby-unfriendly hospital. I had one flat nipple and was promptly given a nipple shield by my nurse. Big mistake. In addition, the fuckers gave my girl a bottle before ever allowing her to nurse. I didn't see her for five hours after the c-section. One and a half weeks postpartum, I awoke in the middle of the night to chills so bad I could hardly move. My nails and eyelids were blue. I took a Tylenol. My morning, my left breast was swollen. I was given a short round of antibiotics. Within days of finishing those and exactly one week after waking to mastitis, my breast was a red, painful mess again.
Fast forward to a few weeks later....mastitis in the other breast, which is peeling away like a sunburn, thrush in both breasts, and two extremely traumatized nipples. My mom said it looked like someone took a torch to my right nipple. She wasn't exaggerating. Oh, I wanted to throw in the towel. I was pissed and tired. I was pumping every two to three hours day and night. I could not nurse dd because of the pain.
Fast forward a couple more weeks...my saving grace, the world's best LC, helps me get baby back to breast and has both nipples in decent shape. Still fighting Raynaud's but at least I wasn't bleeding anymore. It's a few more weeks before dd loses her bottle preference, but soon we are nursing like champs. At about four months, I get my first taste of painless nursing.
Things were great until 8 mos, when dd decided nursing like a newbie was a good thing again. Those all night marathons had me ready to wean. I was determined to give her a full year, though, and we started weaning at 13 mos with the goal to be done by 18 mos. Some of the sessions went quickly; some slowly. I held onto the last, the early morning feeding, until three days ago. Now, dd takes a sippy of water in the morning and miraculously, falls back to sleep for a little while longer.
We are done! I have mixed emotions, but mostly, I am happy as a clam about it. Back in real dresses and drinking all the coffee I like. YAY!