Not sure where to go with this...
Hi - I am new to the board but I have done some reading and I will be perfectly honest many of you seem like very intelligent individuals and I am quite impressed. Thats why I feel comfortable opening up and spilling it to yall cause I think I can get some honest and thoughtful responses.
First off I was with my son's Father, John, for 5 1/2 years. We seperated once in 04 then again late last year this time for good. I love John truly I do but he was emotionally unattatched to me (and physically ugh) and it just wasnt working out. I had been with him for such a long time since I was really a child and alot of who I am was shaped by our relationship. A few months after our seperation a guy named Joseph started hitting one me and asking me out and I decided to say 'yes.' Now Joseph is the total opposite of John. He is very loving and attentive and literally will bend over backwards for me. We have been dating almost a year now and he is pretty much moved into my house. My son adores him and I really couldnt ask for a better boyfriend. Now for the PROBLEM, I know Joseph wants to settle down and marry me and there are times that I am soooooo wanting that and then there are times where I miss John terribly. Ive even caught myself shedding a few tears over John. I dont know if necessarily miss HIM but perhaps I miss what we once shared and even what could have been.
Is that normal? Should I be having these feelings or do I need to get over it! UgH I feel absolutely ridiculous! I love and care about Joseph so much but I think a huge part of me misses my "friendship" with John. I feel pathetic.