There are a lot of details I am learning about her past which are not very comforting. Now DQ says mom is crying every day. I am not doing well at all dealing with this.
I have made allusions to a rough childhood before-and you know relatively speaking it wasn't THAT bad but I dealt with it by "checking out" mentally and pretending things were not happening.
that is kind of what I am doing now.
it is hard for me to not be able to go up there but we are moving, we just had a baby and to be frank we cannot afford it.
my brother and his gf and their soon to 3 yo daughter have moved in with my parents, my dad moved himself into the basement and is giving them the house so they can help out with my mom. I am not sure if this is a good idea, but why would anyone listen to me? Why should I have any say?
I just think I am getting depressed over this, and the situation up there would only serve to depress me more-so maybe I shouldn't even try to go up there until things calm down or take a turn for the worse.
*sigh* I feel like a fucking asshole for even thinking these things, but it is a pretty complex situation.