This is the latest in a series of anti-depressants (anti-psychotics, in this case
) that my doctor has prescribed for me. She just diagnosed me with Bi-Polar Disorder Type II.
The first was Zoloft, which worked just beautifully for months, then just stopped.
Next was Cymbalta, which caused that dreaded sexual side effect (which wouldn't matter if I weren't alone
) and did nothing else except make me drowsy/sluggish.
So now we try Seroquel XR. I'm on day 3, and it's making me feel like a zombie. It does seem to be suppressing my appetite, so I guess that's a bonus. But today I was supposed to work overtime (voluntary, not mandatory, so I'm not in trouble, but I can't work OT again for a month). I couldn't drag myself to work. I (SLOWLY
) drove the boys to school, then came home and crawled back into bed, where I slept again from 9:30 am to 2:00 pm.
I feel like I'm stoned and I don't like it. Why is my doctor prescribing "downers" to a known depressive/BPD? Sure, my thoughts have stopped racing somewhat, but then ALL my thoughts have slowed and I hate it.
I've asked specifically for Wellbutrin because so many of you here swear by it. She is reluctant to give it to me for some reason and I can't for the life of me figure out why.
Thanks for reading.