I'm going to get a cord tie thingy from BRU. Thanks for the suggestion. dh came home late last night and I was upset because he never calls me to tell me when he will be home. He was supposed to bring home a pizza (ds loves pizza and wednesdays are family pizza night). Since he usually picks it up on the way home, I called and asked when he will be getting done with work (He just started a new job a few weeks ago and has very unpredictable hours). ds was getting very hungry/tired/fussy. I didn't know whether to wait for the pizza or whip something up for ds. I called him 3 times and got no answer on his cell. When he called me back, he told me he had just picked up the pizza and would be home in a minute. We ate, ds went to bed, dh drank 3 beers (which he picked up while getting pizza) and was getting ready to go to sleep. dh doesn't really drink much at all. He told me that he bought the beer so he could fall asleep so he doesn't have to argue with me. We made up, and I told him that he can't drown in his sorrows. If he has issues, he needs to speak about them. If he drinks his problems away, it is going to end up hurting us more. I asked him this morning if he would please not drink just so he could avoid me, and he agreed. He also told me that the day he left the note for me on the door, he was actually going to leave and stay at his office...indefinately. The only reason he came home was because he heard my hysterical message and felt bad for me. He assured me last night that he was in it for the long haul and he loved me. I think it is some sort of mid-life crisis. He said that he has a lot of issues in his head to work out.
I swear to God I did not know there was anything wrong with our relationship until Sunday afternoon. It just seems to be getting worse and worse.
Well, I did call the church this morning where we were married and left a message to see if they had any kind of counseling service or if the could refer me to somewhere else. It is so obvious that we need intervention. I can't live like this much longer. Thanks to everyone for the support. Please keep us in your thoughts.