If anyone cares
So my mom is done with radiation and some chemo. She was supposed to have round 3 of chemo last week but she has developed diabetes so they had to get her sugar under control. She is now on insulin injections.
She has also developed a heart arrhythmia so they put her on a beta blocker. She has the cough again so they did another scan looking for some lung complication that I can't recall the name. So good news - she doesn't have that complication. Her tumor has also shrunk from 6.5 cm to 4.8cm so the treatment is working
My goofy ass decision to work 2 jobs for the price of one is biting me in the ass a bit

I know the long term outlook for job #2 is so much better but it blows working 45 hours a week and adding 6 hours a week commute time to make the same money I was doing 40 hours a week at job 1. DH said I could always quit one of them if it was too much - I may have

down into a stressed out PMS tantrum last week

- but I am trying to get as much into savings as possible. Which would be a lot easier if I didn't need to do shit like buy new appliances
School is school. It sucks but I am committed and I will finish this bullshit. I feel like this degree plus my experience at job 1 and the training provided by job 2 might actually get me into something reasonable. I still kick myself for the teaching degree choosing to go bio. I could teach if I was willing to move but I am not doing that to my kids. Should have done math if I was going to do the teaching thing - better yet, I should have gone for the business degree from the start. I'm so tired of trying to make responsible decisions only to have them blow up in my face.
In 4 years, we will be free to go wherever opportunity takes us. I'm excited by the idea of not being tied down but I am also

because in less than 4 years, all of my kids will have graduated and it makes me feel old and sad
I totally dreamed I was pg last night

Its getting to me.