Oh dear!Sad to hear that your marriage life went unsuccesful.It was not your fault dear.These are the decisions that are made by nature.What we  have to do is just to obey these decisions.I know its just heartbreaking and challenging for you lady.You have gone through many hardships dear.I know it was really hard for you.But I congratulate on your decision.Its definitely isolating without kids.You seems desperate about baby.And soon you'll become a mother.Dear,you are lucky that you found a source to have a baby.I appreciate your courage.And I hope one day you'll be posting happily about your baby.Good luck dear.Best wishes for you.