I don't know if it's from taking the Follistim, the hcg shot yesterday or what, but I woke up in a serious funk today My temp is up, makes me wonder if I DID ovulate yesterday, my ovaries AREN'T hurting and I just feel like it was all for naught.

Then, just as I'm getting myself to feel better, we go back in for the actual procedure, after dropping dh's sample off an hour earlier, and I find out there are only 9 million sperm in the IUI syringe They said the sample only had 32 mil, and 18 mil were motile, then after using the wash/chemicals to decrease the viscosity it left 9. This is a HUGE difference from the SA we had a year ago

So, I just want to sit down and cry and I feel bad for dh b/c he knows I'm upset and he's trying so hard to be optimistic. I didn't even plug my temp in this am b/c it's so much higher than even when I AM normally 1dpo. I was tossing and turning so I know that's part of it.

And even if I didn't ovulate yesterday, the fact that there's no symptoms (ie pain) indicating imminent ovulation now, really worries me b/c the washed sperm only live 6-12 hours. Either scenario pretty much means 1,000.00 down the drain and another cycle wasted.

/end pessimistic moody rant

I showed up on the wrong day for my IUI and they did it anyway, but said not to get my hopes up. DS was born 9 months later!

I know it's a long wait, but you may get a nice surprise!

Yep, I was told that I hadn't even ovulated, and then two weeks later I was pregnant.

MM, I wish the best for you. It's got to be really hard to walk the line between optimism and getting your hopes up, and maybe you just feel funky because this cycle is SO different than the other ones? Its probably hard to believe your body is still functioning after these medications, and the whole thing is just kind of surreal. Especially after what you have been doing, you know?

I'm babbling. But.... much love to you.

Try to relax and not think about it - it's out of your hands, now, let it happen. Think about what's going on in your body - visualize and focus.

My temps were whacked when I was stimming, so I didn't even count them.

:positive

Thanks, guys

I'm not feeling so horribly down right now, but the excitement of yesterday is gone

Good luck MM.

Hang in there honey. It only takes one little swimmer right?

I'm praying for you guys MM.

It ain't over 'till the hag shows..don't forget that.

I have been thinking about you all day. Gooooooo spermies! (Don't even attempt to think of me in a cheerleading uniform!) There's no reason to believe that things didn't work. None.

And as all of my RE's told me, make sure to have mercy sex today too...ya know, so that your husband maintains his ego. Besides, one extra boost of spermies never hurt anyone.

You guys seriously rock It is amazing seeing all your support.

Update: I AM ovulating, now or did during the early (earlier) am hours. I hurt like a mother fucker and on the LEFT side as well--it's killing me at the moment. So that makes me feel better, for a couple of reasons. I am reassured that the pains I feel on the right every month are a damn good indicator that I am ovulating on THAT side. I feel better knowing that my body isn't totally freaked out from stimming and it's still doing 'normal' things to let me know what's going on.

I am NOT thrilled that we jumped the gun on the IUI b/c this is well past the optimal 6 hr range. However, we bd'd last night and will again today, so hopefully dh has enough swimmers left to do the deed. I wonder what they would have done if my u/s had been on Friday instead of Thursday, indicating the best time for IUI was a Sunday? I certainly know how they feel about coming in on Saturdays now. This will definitely be a topic of discussion if we do it all over again next month...no more 24 hr post trigger IUIs, as I am quite convinced that research is accurate when it says 36 hrs is the proper time span.

My temps are whack, though. I'm going to have to put them in time out.

Great news!! Good luck!

Fuck your temps and everything else that upsets you I am praying for you MM and I really hope that this is successful for you and DH.

Thanks

Mel, I can't believe you have already had your baby and it's time to head back to work. It seems like yesterday I was wondering if we'd end up pg buddies

My how time flies.

Positive thoughts your way MM. I really hope this is the cycle for you!

:positive Head up, MM. I hope this is it for you.

It's all going to be good MM. I know it is hard - I have seen so many people get pg, have babies, and now those babies will soon be having first birthdays and here we chug along.
You will be in IS together with me any day now And we are going to stay there for 9 damn months, hear me?!? It's gonna happen