It's okay, dear. Please calm down. Don't take so much stress. I know it's not easy, of course. But you shouldn't lose hope. I understand that it gets very frustrating. But losing hope just like that is not the solution. It takes less time for few and takes a lot of time for the others. But if you stop trying then there's a 0% chance. And if you keep on trying, then at least you have some chance. It doesn't matter if it's late. You must have heard, 'better late than never'. I hope you are getting me. Just stay strong. Never quit trying. I am always here to support you. Ask me for any help if you need it. I will be glad to help.