I missed it, I fucking missed it
I don't have what you call a regular sex life. DH and I both have pretty low sex drives. We can go a whole month and not have sex. But this month it was improving. We were making a real effort.
This weekend was my birthday, and as you probably know, I got pretty plastered. I also had my parents visiting, which put a dent in the bedroom shenanigans. I just checked Limey's stats, and according to that, I am cd18
The last time I had sex was on Thursday. That would be cd14, if I have it worked out right (considering the time differences). I don't recall any EW, I don't even think I ov'd, but if I did, I only had sex that one time in the right part of my cycle. I just know I have totally messed up again
I know I need to be more active in the bedroom to even give this a hope of working, and I was so certain we would be able to do it. We have enough physical problems standing in our way, I can't believe lack of libido has to add to it
I have no idea how to pick things up, I don't know what we can do to want it more, we have always been this way. Totally relaxed with each other, we adore each other, find each other very attractive, we just don't do 'it' all that often.
I can't believe i am even admitting this on a public board
I am just so shattered that we have missed another opportunity, and really angry at both of us. Fuck, fuck, FUCK!!
I really needed to get that off my chest!