Just a big old whiny post
I don't know what is wrong with me. I can't seem to relax at all about this pregnancy. I worry every single day that something might be wrong. I am 17 weeks and a few days now and I am getting really impatient to feel the baby move. I haven't felt anything yet that I could accurately describe as baby movements and for some reason, I got it in my head that I should have felt something by now. I'm also a big girl to begin with and I carry a lot of weight around my belly so there is no baby bump to see. I don't look any different and most days I don't even feel pregnant.
I really should just stay off the damn internet. So many others on my due date board have been feeling the baby for a few weeks now and are happily showing pictures of their big bellies.
I know I should just be patient, I just don't know how to relax. I've longed for this baby for years and now that it's happened, I can't even fucking relax long enough to enjoy this pregnancy. I am upset and frustrated with myself, yet I can't seem to just relax and be patient. My next ultrasound is in two weeks. I feel like I'm going to lose it between now and then.