no flames please. Let me tell my side and explain a few things first.
First off, I wanted to say that I am truly sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable.
I really did need the private grief support forum, because I felt safe posting about it.
The reason I was let in early, is because I had pm'd Kat right after losing my babies and needed some support.
I am not a freak, I am not a troll, and I certainly don't get a kick out of reading about other people's tragedies.
I wasn't trolling for anyone, nor was I C&P'ing.
I am sorry for hurting people by asking to be in here.
I am sorry if I made you uncomfortable.
You have to realize as well, I ws very hurt by all of this too.
My needs are/were legitimate, but I have been shunned and looked down on, gossiped about, flamed, etc... because of other people's stupidity (people like complicated, and LadyinPink).
As if feeling like shit about losing my babies wasn't bad enough, I was treated like shit before people even asked me any questions and actually gave me a chance to answer and explain.
I have lost "friends" because of this.
I don't get out of my house much, mostly due to really bad depression now.
I stay in touch with people online. As pathetic as that sounds, those are my friends and how I socialize.
I didn't read much about me on the ME when all of this went down. I just couldn't handle it.
To know that my problems are in fact real, and then to have people make it out to be some horrible thing like I am a troll just trying to get the "scoop" on people to entertain others.
I see where you were coming from, I just wish I had had a chance to explain in a civilized manner.
I tried, but noone would listen. Every response to a question I answered was some rude jackass remark and it is very hard to explain things when they turn ugly like that.
This post is mainly to say that I am sorry for making you all uncomfortable and scared to post things.
I truly am sincere and my problems are very real.
If people would take the time to get to know me, or ask me straight out in an adult manner, you would come to see the person that I am.
I am a good person, and wouldn't even dream of doing the things I was accused of.