she posted pics of him again this morning... I said he looks like his momma! WTF do I say? I know she is sharing her love with the world, I want him acknowledged, but I dont know what words are ok, whats not.
I have so much going on in my real life, I am scared to break down right now. I have a feeling I wont do well. Its so weird to know I am not grieving right and yet still avoid it.
Its surreal. I almost feel like I am outside looking in. (i know this makes no sense)
I do feel guilty. Guilty they loved him so much and they were punished for some reason.
Guilty I dont have answers
Pissed. i am pissed. Its been almost 2 weeks and I am just a ball of anger. Just sucks.
Today was the first time since it happened they werent on my mind first thing in the morning. Reliving their nightmare in my head and in my dreams was seriously exhausting.
they arent talking to people yet, they will. I didnt know her very well, and until ronin was born my brother and I were estranged. He brought us back together
TY grouchy, TY all of you. Its nice being able to vent about this.