I can't find enough words to put into a language known to us about how sorry I am for your loss. Yes, it hurts and it never just stops hurting enough, right? We were blessed with a disguised god, namely, mother because somehow the gods sitting up above knew that the earth would be far more a better place if every being there has a mother. Someone who not only takes care of her child but can also die for them. She keeps a child in her womb for 9 months. Something quite unbearable and surprising for the mankind. And people who lose their mothers are the most unfortunate people on the whole planet. I can feel it gets impossible to survive. But dear just imagine, she wouldn't have wanted you to be as depressed as you are, right? She would have only and always just wanted you to have lived your life the best and in the most beautiful way. I know it sounds like better said than done kind of words. But trust me, you have to think of her, love for her life the way she couldn't. Go out and live the dreams that she couldn't. Make her life worth remembering, carry her legacy forward. I am sure she might have been no less than a wonder woman! I know you can't get over it, I guess no body can't and there's no explanation for it. but you have to get up one day. And face it one day. Live your life, and make her proud. I know you can and you must. I wish the best in your life. Take care, I will pray for you.