Well, Darling! Donít be depressed it! Itís just how life is. I just want you to be strong. Iím suffering from the same issue, I have this endometriosis. Iím trying to go through a surrogacy process in Ukraine later next year. Nothing can be more beautiful for a mother than to have her child in her arms for the very first time. She cannot control her tears at that moment while those tears being of happiness but not of grief. Give your body a chance to heal. After difficult childbirth it takes time to be all normal again. Donít worry, it will be ok and great .