38 wks pregnant- To stay or go?
Hi I am looking for a little advice. I am 38 weeks pregnant with my first child. I am currently in a relationship with a man who has been very supportive of this pregnancy and I am very happy with our current relationship.
In the past we went through some hard times and he became violent and cheated on me. He went through counseling and treats me 5 billion times better and is a very supportive man.
The problem is that he still won't fess up to the affair even though I have all the proof I need including confirmation from the girl who happened to be his ex.
Its been almost 2 years since then and while he is amazing to me now, I feel like I haven't healed. I don't know how to. I have pled for the truth and got nothing in return. He treats me so well now, but a part of me feels like my hearts not in it and I resent him for hurting me and the ongoing lie.
He swears he never did it, but he admits to the emotional affair. Does this matter anymore? I am so upset I am having trouble sleeping and now I feel tied to him. We had a long talk last night and I told him that I didn't know if I could stick around. I am worried about this baby getting hurt. He said if we are over he won't be a part of our daughters life. It would be too hard... I wonder if its not my pregnant hormones causing this confusion. I am really afraid of staying home looking after our little girl and him out having affairs. I just don't want to get hurt. I also don't want to tear our family apart.
Please help. Thanks!