and FP too, it just didn't quote you...

Its not that I feel I have to believe or maybe it is, I don't even know. I have a fear of hell that probably a part of me actually believes in. Its also the fear of if I don't believe in heaven than this life is sort of worthless meaning, I love, experience and cherish for what seems like nothing. I love my life, my kids, my family and everything I have done but to have it end in nothing? Well that just doesn't seem right. I feel like there has to be something because then this is all for nothing, kwim?

*lost*

Sorry, my thoughts are so jumbled.

Exactly. And we don't need some asshole standing up in front of us on Sunday telling us to behave. We behave because it is the right thing to do.

Atheists don't worry about shit like that

Actually, maybe it's just me.

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The thought of eternal death and being done on this earth scares me.

They I think, so if there isnt a God, who created the universe in its being? Whowhat created the sun ? How did atoms form at all?

Welcome to my brain, people. This shit keeps me up at night.

The thought of eternal death and being done on this earth scares me. regardless of what or where we go, even if it's nowhere. The thought of me dying and never seeing anyone I love ever again gives me an anxiety attack.

They I think, so if there isnt a God, who created the universe in its being? Whowhat created the sun ? How did atoms form at all?

Welcome to my brain, people. This shit keeps me up at night.

I think most people's faith ebbs and flows and changes as their lives change. I know it's scary to feel like a foundation of your life is unstable, but it's completely normal. By questioning and searching you'll land in a spiritual place that is right for *you* and your family, and it may not neccesarily be what your parents raised you to be. If that means coming to terms with not being a person of faith then that's ok too and you will still have relationships that support and sustain you outside of a church.

One of my best friends who is in her late 40's has been a Methodist her entire life. They recently left their church because of a lot of reasons having to do with the leadership. They've been really enjoying having their Sundays to themselves, hanging out with their kids, not feeling pulled to join choir/Wednesday suppers/multiple bible study groups, etc. The first few weeks she felt so guilty enjoying that time and not feeling a void in her life. I told her that was silly. . That extra downtime let's them reconnect with their kids ( which is much, much more important that going to youth group meetings every week), relax together and feel at peace with each other. She's afraid her kids will grow up lacking without having a church home. I told her they can still have connections and community and faith without church. That taking their time finding the right church was much more important that just planting their butts in pews every Sunday.

I guess my point is that even people well into their lives can have a fork in the road when it comes to believing in God or not and making decisions on what to do with that belief.